Christine Duncan

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You Wait Here, I’ve Got Some Things to Rearrange

When God Says Wait

It was a kind of bizarre moment.

The journey was already long and drawn out, a roller coaster of health ups and downs, answers to prayer, release and relief.

So when I started to prepare to enter back into life as I knew it, and suddenly felt a holy hand go up in front of my hurried hustle, I was confused.

He had answered my prayer. I had come back to life. So why the hold-up?

Turns out He knew some things.

Some things that would happen to me. Some things He would do in me.

And I wasn’t lacking in faith.

I wasn’t doubting the answer.

Hadn’t got a head of myself.

But there was a stretch where I couldn’t figure out why I was still in a holding pattern when it seemed perfectly safe to land.

At one point I was talking to a friend who knows a thing or two about holy rest and waiting on God, and admitted that I was so ready to get back to all the things I loved, was actually raring to go for the first time in almost a year, and yet felt very definitely that He was being firm on “wait”.

But didn’t know what I was waiting on.

Her emailed response settled upon me, and asked me something my heart hadn’t considered, her words adding light to see more clearly by.

“Think of this season in terms of God saying to you, ‘Can I trust you with what I have in mind next?”

He had brought me this far, so if He was saying wait a bit longer He had a good reason.

My heart un-clenched.

I realised I wasn’t given a “wait here on a never-ending loop” directive but a “you wait here, I’ve got some things to arrange” directive.

So I relinquished all my “here I come, world” and instead offered up a “here I am, Lord.”

And I waited.

Turns out, He knew that my new health season would require some recoup that wouldn’t kick in right away. That when it did, He would have to see me through it, hard.

And so I entered a season of healing pains.

My body so happy to be rid of a little something called Lyme that it would then try to regenerate every bit of tissue, nerve, joint, muscle, and brain wave that disease had affected through the years… all at once.

Sometimes we know we’re the most alive, and in the most healthy transition of our lives, when we enter a pain cycle, the proof that life really is returning.

Like when a limb feels like it’s on fire after it’s fallen asleep, He knew that would be me- body, mind, and soul, for another 7 whole months.

Good pains but still hard pains that would wipe me out.

And He had known they were coming.

You circle in a holding pattern until the tower says all is clear. It’s for your safety.

So while I embraced His “wait” and used it to rest and heal further, He began to reveal that He was not idle while I was out of commission, but that He was rearranging and orchestrating some things, old and new.

“You wait here, I’ve got some things to rearrange.”

“I need to clear the tarmac. I’ve got to prepare you for what’s to come. I know you’re going to need more time to adjust.”

“I’m doing this not just so you can get back, but so that you can thrive. ”

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I’m posting this because there’s a feeling in the air like we’re transitioning out of the holding pattern and into new destinations.

Will you wait with me, just a little bit longer, as He directs me out of this hard season and into a few things I’m slightly surprised at?

I have a new feeling. That what He has is going to be good. And maybe different. Maybe needing courage.

Always needing faith and obedience.

Thanks for hanging around while this new season is about to be released, readers! It won’t be very long and we’ll be doing this thing called life together again.

Now, you wait here please… I’ve got some things to rearrange.

When God Says Expect

Do you have a word that could sum up everything you hope, dream, act out, live, breathe, and build on for this new year?

Quite a question isn’t it?!

Over at the Faith Barista website, author Bonnie Gray is challenging readers and bloggers everywhere to write with special purpose every week, based on a prompt God places on her heart, and then to link everyone’s posts together in one place for encouragement and inspiration.  So I’m posting this today as part of Beloved Brews and hope you’ll check out all the fantastic blogs being served up this week as a result.

Beloved Brews Linkup
It’s going to be fabulous. Seriously.

Before I even knew that this ‘one word’ phenomenon was an actual thing, I had been seeking God’s heart about the approach of 2015 and what He wanted to accomplish and how to be open to the things He wanted to equip me for.

And whenever I spent time being still, settling into His presence, and waiting on Him, there’d be this idea pressing in on my heart. It would roll around in my spirit, I’d turn it over and examine it, and I’d lay it back at His feet, unsure if what I was hearing was really Him, or just me… being me.

As someone who used to rush headlong into all sorts of things on the off-chance something was God’s leading, and then discovering I’d never given Him a chance to even give clear direction and definition and falling flat on my face, this time I decided to let it simmer, to let it gel, and to give God plenty of room to expand it and grow it before I’d take even the slightest action.

I’ve since learned, from all those past episodes of crashing about in my own spiritual understanding, to actually wait on the Lord. To keep my focus on Him. To let Him be my everything, everyday.

Some days are easier than others, am I right?

So back to praying. To listening. To making sure my soul is firmly anchored to the Life Preserver before I try to take on an ocean of stuff. Like routines, and ministry, and family, and chronic depression, and blogging. It all makes for one big ocean, let me tell you.

And lo and behold, the more I waited, trusted, and laid everything at His feet, keeping things in their rightful place, and bolstered my faith with His Word, the more this particular word kept repeating itself. Like waves softening up the shore, leaving little gems behind.

This particular gem, this one word, was Expect.

Even now when I say it, I say it under my breath, so as not to make it my latest focus or new obsession, but more my reason to keep eyes on Him and only Him.

Because the Creator-King, Almighty, I Am, is asking me to Expect.

I suddenly realised this was a big deal.

And in case I still wasn’t sure, He used the words of a friend who innocently thought she was just guest blogging early this week, to firmly anchor it for me.

Needless to say, He’s got my complete attention.

And if God asks me to step into 2015 expecting, then by knowing His very nature, it would follow that He obviously has something He desires to accomplish through this one potent word.

He’s asking me to anticipate, to keep watch, to keep distractions at a minimum, to stay close to the Source. Like the parable maidens with their oil lamps who chose to remain ever ready, ever vigilant, ever longing for their Beloved. No matter how long it took.

To be ready to move when He says move.

To be prepared to be used when He calls me to be used.

To be eager to be taught when He decides to teach.

To be scanning constantly for His constant will.

I’m being asked to expect.

And so I look through His Word, gathering intel, committing to heart all the ways God has already fleshed out this one word. And I find the Hebrew term {Qavah} all throughout scripture, it’s very definition meaning to hope, wait with longing,  to look forward, to expect.

“No one who expects/waits eagerly/hopes in You will ever be put to shame, but shame will come to those who offend without cause…”
Psalm 25:3

“The Lord is good to those who wait hopefully and expectantly for Him, to those who seek Him [inquire of and for Him and require Him by right of necessity and on the authority of God’s word]”
Lamentations 3:25

“For through the Spirit, by faith, we wait expectantly for the hope of righteousness.”
Galatians 5:5

The longer I study it, the more I begin to appreciate this new season of expecting. That He has things, good things, in store for those who keep vigil for only Him. To {expect} Him to be my everything.

And I see the evidence of it in His Word, and choose to say yes to all it implies. And honest to goodness, this expecting takes flight, right away, and I can feel anticipation in total rhythm now with His heart beat.

And I sit here now thinking, “wow, this One Word of the year is kind of a big deal…”

So here is 2015, and I’ve prepared my oil lamp, and my heart is on high alert, my spirit expecting His Spirit.

Thinking what a difference One Word for 2015 can make.

My friend, did you seek out a word, a theme, for your year? Do you have this prompting resonating around inside you every time you enter His courts? Might be His way of taking your covenant relationship with Him to fresh territory, to new levels.

What’s your one word for 2015?

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