Christine Duncan

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Insisting On the Dark When We Need The Light

Are you the kind of morning person who throws open the curtains to let the sun in before you’ve taken five breaths awake?

If you are, I salute you.

I want to be you.

Teach me your ways, I implore.

Maybe some of us are more like my teenage son.

His alarm goes off and he doesn’t budge. Then each extremity moves slowly, like coming out of a thaw.

This takes a half an hour.

Without turning on a light or opening a curtain, he shuffles downstairs, feeling his way along, occasionally sending out a yelp when he trips over the dog.

He could avoid this with a light on, but he insists it stay dark.

He moves around the dark kitchen, still no lights, getting out breakfast things he can’t really see, and feeling around, guessing for things.

Good thing the light in the fridge comes on.

He then takes his breakfast, takes it back upstairs where his warm dark comforter is, curls up in the chair with it, and eats.

In the dark.

It amuses the rest of us. Once he’s eaten and dressed it’s like he comes to life but before any of that…

… he insists on the dark.

We shake our heads collectively. Life would be much easier and brighter and alive if he had some light, for goodness sakes.

Wouldn’t it though.

And this makes me think.

Of all the times I’ve gone through my day, insisting on the dark, when what I needed was light.

The days I avoided my faith because I simply felt weary, the days I chose not to worship Him because I was lazy, the days I wouldn’t pray, couldn’t pray, because of the roaring again of my chronic D and so I gave up. And therefore pushed the Light away completely.

Insisting on the dark. It’s not complicated. That’s all that is.

The days I sat wallowing in self-doubt, self-defeat, self-loathing.

The days I never took my battles to Him, but clung to them.

The days I kept bitterness, envy, and pride so close that I sat in those shadows where no one could see.

But He sees. And darkness does not touch Him.

John 1:5ย “And the light shines in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.”

He is all light. And nothing stops Him, darkness cannot win in His presence. And He’s ours if we want Him to be.

We just need to stop favoring the darkness, and start choosing the Light.

His first words to the world He was about to establish for His children were “Let there be light!” Light grows things. Light powers things.

Light allows life.

And His life allows light.

The skies may have darkened over the cross on a hillside, but it could not prevent the light that would have burst forth three days later. Nothing could. That was resurrecting light.

It was the Light of the World emerging victorious, riding in on the same light He spoke into being.

So we have to choose life. It ours if we want it to be. Only in Him.

Powered by His hand, we’ve never been without. Even as we sleep on one side of the world, the other is bathed in His source of life. So we don’t know true darkness. I pray we never do. Even at night there is light to be had.

In fact, isn’t it true that the darker it seems, the more brilliant the remaining light will be?

I stood outside one night a few days ago for a moment to get some air (chilly, wintryย air, oh my) and when my eyes adjusted, there were banners of sharp, brilliant stars, and one amazingly bright planet we can only see this time of year, shining in the night sky. And a cheerful blinking satellite beaming past them all.

And I thought, wow, look at all the light. And it settled on my heart for a moment. We’re not forgotten in the darkness. There is provision. There is a guiding Source. There is hope, blinking against the sky.

Our reminder to look to the Light.

We were made for His light. So we could be one. We’re called to be one.

1 Peter 2:9ย “But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that you should show forth the praises of Him who has called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.”

My heart realizes the folly of going out into the day being anything less than His light. There are already too many who are still insisting on darkness, for so many reasons. We need to show off His light!

And on the days when my dysthymia won’t budge, when the brain fog tries to hover, when the day seems like a lost cause, all I have to do is keep eyes fixed on the true Light of the World. So that darkness can’t touch me.

We have to let the Light in.

Pull back the curtains of worry. Open the shutters of fear. Scatter the shadows of pain. No more insisting on darkness.

Be bathed in His light.

Lord, we want to shine today. Like You.

For You.

{Today’s post is glad to be apart of the #RaRaLinkup over at Kelly Balarie’s blog!}


  1. Unfortunatly I have been living in the Dark. Though I do believe in Jesus. I have been seeing my Doctor to see why. I also am going to see a counselor. It has taken me many years to address my depression. For many years I had no insurance and being ashamed of being depressed at times. I am so overwhelmed living in darkness.

    • Christine Duncan

      February 24, 2015 at 4:40 PM

      James, can I encourage you today, my friend? When Jesus dwells in your heart, you are free to live in His light. Where there’s goodness and mercy.
      Never be ashamed of your depression. It does not define you, it’s not who you are. It is simply something you live with that requires work.
      And He will be faithful to complete His work in you.
      I pray you begin to feel the warmth of His never failing light, and stand firm in the truth that He cherishes you, today!
      Be well, my friend, I continue to lift you up in prayer.

  2. Thank you for reminding us that God is always with us and we can move from darkness to light. I guess sometimes we choose to stay in the dark, floundering, but when we finally turn to Him, we find peace. And then, there are some who do fight with depression and it’s very hard. Sometimes my son tends to be depressed. He has muscular dystrophy and can’t do a lot of things others can. I know it is very hard to pull out of it and sometimes people need others to pray for them and help to pull them out. My heart goes out to your first commenter, James. I pray that he will find his way out and that God would surround him with His love.

    • Christine Duncan

      February 24, 2015 at 10:01 PM

      Thank you, Gayl! I love your response here, and I know James will be greatly encouraged as well!
      Depression is very hard, I’ve lived with the chronic version for 29 years now… and I am learning to keep eyes fixed on Him, when I can’t find the strength to do anything else.
      And He is all the life I need, He keeps teaching me this.
      I hope you don’t mind that I keep your son in your prayers. Sounds like a very brave person.
      Thanks again for your encouragement! Very much appreciate it today!

  3. Christine,
    This was really great! I, too, have one of those hard to stir to the land of the living in our house (actually, a little one and a Daddy one! lol)
    “Light allows life.”
    That one is going to sit with me today! Such a great statement! And I love the verses you highlighted. Some of my favorites!
    Great to link up with you! ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Christine Duncan

      February 25, 2015 at 10:46 AM

      Hi Christy,
      Thanks so much! I’m afraid I’m borderline “hard to stir” myself. I know there are many of us. All I know is that when you finally let light in, great things start to happen, small ways and big. ๐Ÿ™‚
      Glad to have linked up with you all!

  4. “We just need to stop favoring the darkness, and start choosing the Light.”
    Amen! Your words speak truth and bring light to the dark corners of my heart today. Thankful I stumbled upon your blog via #RaRaLinkup! God bless, Tina

    • Christine Duncan

      February 26, 2015 at 1:32 PM

      I’m so grateful you did, Tina! I am being feed in a huge way over at the #RaRaLinkup too. Glad to have met you, I look forward to reading your posts ๐Ÿ™‚ Sisters sticking with the Light!

  5. “Light powers things.” “Light brings life.”
    This just got me sitting up straight.
    I have no idea why we insist on the dark when it is so much easier to let in the light.
    Its really a journey though, cos the more we walk with God and realise that He truly cares about us, we can trust Him with all our doubts and fears.
    Thanks Christine for reminding me of this constant light around me.

    • Christine Duncan

      February 26, 2015 at 2:44 PM

      It’s true, the more we walk with Him, the more we’ll change and grow, and then be a light for others, so they’ll know the peace and assurance of a Saviour!
      So glad to have connected, Thecla, praying God blesses you big this week!

  6. “We just need to stop favoring the darkness, and start choosing the Light.” I love this, Christine! Thanks for your encouragement today & for linking up with #RaRaLinkup

    • Christine Duncan

      March 2, 2015 at 11:52 AM

      Super thankful for the linkup, Katy! I’m blown away by how talented and welcoming everyone is! Thanks so much for your comment, some days it’s easier than others, but choosing the Light never steers us wrong ๐Ÿ™‚

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