Welcome to the first post on my new blog site. I’ve heard it said that the first post is the hardest. I’ve also heard it said that the first post is the easiest. Which one is right? Well, let’s just say the first post is complicated. Here’s why….
I’ve been on this incredible journey. One of discovery, waiting, and diagnosis. And if I’m honest, it’s been enlightening and exhausting all at the same time. It’s my desire to write about it, for all to see, so that others on the same kinds of journeys will know they’re not alone. DID you know you’re not alone? We’ll get to that in a second.
First, let me tell you about early onset Dysthymic Disorder (pronounced dis-thy-mia). It’s the diagnosis part of the journey I alluded to. It’s taken a while to confirm, and we now know I’ve lived with it for a grand total of 28 years. Basically it’s chronic depression. Not as severe as episodes of clinical “D” but can be more disabling in the long run because it exists over a person’s lifetime, and therefore harder to diagnose.
Over the next weeks and months, if you decide to ride this out with me, you’ll get to see all the facets of Dysthymia, because I plan to blog about this disorder. And why it took me so long to even know it was there! Real life, real mess, real grace and mercy-type blogging. And even if you don’t have one of the several types of depression out there, don’t assume you won’t relate. We all have things we struggle with, become anxious about, and battle from day to day.
You are NOT alone. And I know you think you know that, but do you BELIEVE that?
In the midst of my journey I’ve had my FAITH to hold on to. In the middle of endless months, and indeed years, of insomnia, migraines, anxiety, dismal moods, zero focus, memory loss, zero energy, and debilitating waves of despair (to name a few of the weekly symptoms) I’ve had the One from Psalm 121 by my side. Even when my Dysthymia meant I could not even cognitively decide how to get out of bed let alone call out to God, I’ve found out that all the things that make God, God, (ie.His precepts!) caused Him to never abandon me. In the crushing waves that are the ocean of depression He is my life-preserver. And on the days where the disabling fog is lifting, He finds ways to remind me. And to teach me, putting all things in perspective. Yeah, there’s going to be some God-talk up in here. I won’t lie. Believers are not exempt from depression, don’t ever let anyone tell you different.
I plan on exploring my entire journey through Depression AND why I believe He’s riding it out with me. And a heads up, on the low days, I’ll not be holding anything back. Like I said, real life, real mess, real grace and mercy-type blogging. And more than a few laughs thrown in, too. Yer gettin’ it all.
Want to read about how the blog got its title and what it means? Want to see a list of symptoms and more information on chronic depression. Check out the menu options at the top of the page.
Have questions about Dysthymia? About living with someone who has or might have some of these symptoms or a similar diagnosis? Shoot me an email and, if I’m not rendered useless in bed till 4 in the afternoon, we’ll talk. (Just being honest….)
Can I tell you how blessed I am to have you along for the ride, as hard as some of it might be?
Very, very. Let’s do this.